Kristen Ziman
Bad Attitudes and Glowworms
Kristen Ziman is a commander with the Aurora Police Department in Aurora, Illinois, and a columnist for the Beacon News. She holds a B.A. in criminal justice management from Aurora University and an M.A. in criminal justice/organizational leadership from Boston University. In addition to writing for the Beacon News, Ziman regularly posts to her blog, Think Different.
In the following essay, Ziman discusses how keeping a positive attitude helps people maintain control over their lives.
Vocabulary development
epiphany: a sudden understanding or insight
contention: conflict; displeasure
bashful: shy
disdain: contempt; hatred
relatively: in comparison with (in this case) other times
exclusively: only
conceptually: in abstract or emotional terms, as opposed to factual terms
overwhelming: bordering on unbearable
metamorphosis: transformation
motives: reasons for people’s actions
hover: to float in the air above something
analytical: given to studying things carefully
gravitated towards: were drawn to
validated: confirmed; supported
proverbial: related to a proverb or common saying. (“Look at yourself in the mirror” is a common saying.)
endure: to survive; to make it through a difficult situation
thrive: to be successful
attitudinally: in terms of attitude
self-
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In my third-
I wish I were a glowworm,
A glowworm’s never glum.
’Cuz how can you be grumpy
When the sun shines out your bum!
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I didn’t understand what that poem meant until I was in my twenties, and I had an epiphany about attitude. I was partnered with a veteran officer, and two hours into our eight-
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I found his disdain for life odd — especially given the fact that it was a beautiful summer day and the few calls we answered were relatively uneventful. As we patrolled the streets, I visualized a dark cloud exclusively over his head in contrast to the sunshine surrounding the rest of us, and I laughed out loud as the glowworm poem popped into my head. It was at that moment that I started to understand the effect our attitude has on our entire existence.
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Throughout my life, I have been bombarded with lessons about attitude. It’s not what happens to us in life, but the way we respond that makes a difference. If you can’t change a situation, you must change the way you see the situation. I understand these lessons on an intellectual level, but conceptually, there are times I find it difficult to find the light when darkness seems to be so overwhelming.
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As I gained more experience as a police officer, I began to understand how the metamorphosis from an optimist to a pessimist occurs. I became distrusting of other human beings, though not without reason. I had been lied to, spit on, and physically attacked while doing my job. I saw the evil human beings did to one another and started to become suspicious of motives all around me. There was a moment when I quietly challenged my decision to make this my career, and I felt my own dark cloud begin to hover.
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Because I’ve always been very analytical and self-
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My favorite book is Man’s Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl. In his book, Frankl writes about his experiences in the concentration camps of Nazi Germany. He took particular interest in how some of his fellow prisoners seemed to endure and even thrive, while others gave up and laid down to die. From this, he concluded that “everything can be taken from a man but one thing: the last of human freedom is to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances — to choose one’s own way.”
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We all struggle in some way with things that are completely out of our control. But the way we gain control over these things — even if only attitudinally — is where our freedom lies. We don’t have to experience torture in a concentration camp to apply Frankl’s teachings to our own lives. We each have the freedom to make choices that liberate us from our self-
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If Frankl’s story doesn’t motivate you to choose the way you look at things, maybe you need to surround yourselves with more glowworms.